“I know today is Monday and you assume it’s going to suck, but according to statistics, there will be over 5,000 weddings, 10,000 childbirths, and 42 million hugs occurring today throughout the United States. Also today, there will be at least 4 people that will win the multimillion dollar lotteries, 600 people will get promotions at work, and 3,000 people will lose their virginity. There will also be 600 dogs adopted, 35,000 balloons sold, and 800,000 skittles eaten. Plus, the words “I love you” will be said over 9 million times. So again, I know today is Monday and you assume it’s going to suck, but just smile, because according to statistics, it should actually be a really nice day.”—(via coffeeissassy)
It amazes me how easy it is for things to change, how easy it is to start off down the same road you always take and wind up somewhere new. Just one false step, one pause, one detour, and you end up with new friends or a bad reputation or a boyfriend or a breakup. It’s never occurred to me before; I’ve never been able to see it. And it makes me feel, weirdly, like maybe all of these different possibilities exist at the same time, like each moment we live has a thousand other moments layered underneath it that look different.
I keep trying to pick myself up and feel better by thinking of how much worse some people in the world probably feel right now, but really… that’s not going to make the lump in my throat disappear, or the knots in my stomach go away, or give me my appetite back and help my hands stop shaking. Fuck, I hate being sad.
I really like being peaceful and quiet. I seriously need to find someone who can relax and be calm and be cool with not speaking every second of the day. I just like chillin’, sometimes. Connecting with myself. Sitting on a rock by a stream or hitting the beach and doing nothing at all is my idea of a good day. It’s reallyyyy getting boring doing these things alone, though. I mean, how much ‘figuring the world out’ can someone do by themselves? But having a person to be carefree with is obviously way too much to ask for. So, instead I’ll be stuck dealing with people who are all over the place and bitching about eveything for the rest of my life. And I dont why I’m writing this on tumblr to myself, I’m just tired.
1. I will not go out with a guy who hasn’t asked me out first. 2. I will not go out with a guy who keeps me waiting by the phone. 3. I will not date a guy who isn’t sure he wants to date me. 4. I will not date a guy who does any drugs or drinks to an extent that makes me uncomfortable. 5. I will not date a guy who makes me feel sexually undesirable. 6. I will not be with a guy who’s afraid to talk about our future. 7. I will not, under any circumstances, spend my precious time with a guy who has already rejected me. 8. I will not date a guy still hung up on his ex. 9. I will not be with a guy who is not clearly a good, kind, loving person.